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her？ How could he soothe her？
She was trembling violently； her eyes wide…not in an answer to her dragon's sensuality； but in sheer terror。 She seemed to draw into herself； denying what was about to happen。 Crossing her arms in a defensive position！ Shards！ Had previous riders raped her as their dragons twined？ He tried to remember which blues and browns weyred at Monaco。
Tai continued backing away from him； looking about wildly for some refuge。
〃They were all the same；〃 she muttered。 〃There's no escape from them。 From their。。。〃 She swallowed； trying to lick dry lips； white…faced with revulsion： her green eyes stark。
〃Tai； were you forced？〃 With those words Tai shot F'lessan a look of such fear laced with guilt that he felt his belly fall flat。 〃You didn't choose？〃 He spoke very gently； appalled。 This should be the most wonderful experience： a doubled ecstasy as both dragon and rider exalted in the union。 He'd thought he'd made it so for those he'd partnered。 The queen riders had always known： they had chosen him。 With the state she was in； there was no way Tai had ever chosen。 〃It shouldn't be a violation。 It should be a celebration for you and your dragon。 The most glorious union！〃
〃Union？〃 She snarled the word； the panic in her eyes telling him that mating had been far from that。
How many times had Zaranth mated？ How many times had she been。。。 he struggled to find the appropriate word。。。 violated？ He knew hold and hall girls often were； it was one reason so many sought sanctuary in a Weyr。 Dragonriders； except at this one time in their dragon's cycle； were known to be considerate； and ardent； lovers。 Without conceit； he knew that he enjoyed a certain reputation。 Is that why Tai had been so chary of his pany？ He'd thought she was just naturally reticent。 Now he realized she had been motivated more by fear than reserve。 He'd have a few well…chosen words for Mirrim after this…if he could only reach the girl now； when it was vital to soothe her。
With the stunning warble of a lustful green； Zaranth issued her challenge to Golanth and launched herself； straight up。 Unlike the queens who needed to blood a kill to give them extra strength for longer mating flights； greens required little preparation beyond the onset of their cycle。 Golanth did not hesitate for a moment； the bugle of his acceptance echoing back to their riders。
Tai screamed in anguish； reaching out futilely as if she could have stopped her green。
〃Tai； listen to me；〃 he said； keeping his voice light。 〃Let me explain how it should be。〃 Carefully； slowly； he held out one hand but she backed away along the terrace。
Eyeing his hand as if even his touch would sully her； she cowered away； her green eyes frantic。
〃Oh； Tai； my friend； if I could； I'd stop Golanth；〃 and he would have given anything to have been able to prepare her more。 If he hadn't been so callous as to ignore what he'd thought was a natural reserve rather than sexual fear。 〃I can't； not now when Zaranth wants him so badly。〃
〃How can she want him？ I don't want you！ Not that way！〃
That admission was at least something in his favor； F'lessan thought； struggling to find a way through panionship to solving the intensely immediate problem of their situation。 All too soon the rider would be consumed by the dragon in a bonding neither could escape。 He had to reach Tai； the human being； before her mind was locked into her mating dragon。
〃But you see； she does。 She just challenged him；〃 he said softly； infusing as much gentle persuasion into his voice as he could。 〃He answered。 He has been admiring her in so many ways。 Just as I admire you； Tai。〃
She blinked； confused。
That was good； F'lessan thought； somewhat frantic himself。 If he couldn't reach her； she'd never realize that it needn't be rape。 He knew he could control his human self； no matter how he might wish to revel in orgasm with his Golanth。
〃Haven't you learned anything of me？〃 he cried in soft desperation。 〃Have I offended you？ Slighted you as friend； Tai？〃 She blinked again； shaking her head； more confused than ever as the hold of her dragon increased。 〃In this let me be your friend…and lover； too。 Challenge me； Tai； as your dragon challenged mine。 Challenge me to make love to you； to you； Tai； not to Tai…rider。 Choose me！〃 He spread his hands across his chest。 〃Choose me； Tai！〃
〃I have no choice；〃 she said； whimpering。 She collapsed inwardly。
〃Oh； Tai； love；〃 he pleaded； holding out his hands but careful not to crowd her。 She was so near the edge of the terrace。 She was suddenly so dear to him； he was surprised to realize。 This was not all Golanth's yearning： F'lessan the man was yearning； too。 〃Please； Tai； please choose me！〃
Whether it was Tai who reached slowly out to her friend for support； or the dazed rider； he wasn't then sure but she did reach。 Was there enough of the human there to have made a choice？
〃Please； Tai； e with me now；〃 he said； taking her hand in a light grasp and gently turning her back； toward the nearest door。 〃My friend； we must go in。〃
He tried not to startle her； slowly guiding her steps…she couldn't see the arm he held behind her； just in case she might still bolt。 Her eyes were glazing： she wouldn't know how close the edge of the terrace was if she should suddenly feel trapped and try to escape。
Murmuring encouragement； he got her inside the weyrhold。 With equal care； he closed the door behind them； grateful that the hinges were oiled and hoping she didn't hear the slight noise as it shut。 Her fingers were slack on his； her gaze distant： she was half in rider trance。 He wanted to settle her before she was pletely submerged by Zaranth's sensuality。 That would have been frightening enough the first time it happened if no one had explained it in full detail。 Tai's reserve should have warned him； he cursed himself for insensitivity。 How long had he been a rider？
Abruptly Tai tensed。 He glanced at her eyes； pupils enlarged against the dark in the hallway。 He kept his hand relaxed while hers tightened convulsively。 He put his other hand on the small of her back； lightly； offering no threat； just guidance。
〃I'm honored you chose me； Tai；〃 he said。 She must believe that。 〃I didn't believe you would； you know。 I admired you for how calmly you got the children out at Monaco。〃 He'd better be careful what he said now。 〃Be calm now； Tai。 Be calm and let me help you now。〃
As deftly as he could； he turned her into the nearest sleeping room。 He could feel Golanth's desire mounting。 He had to control his。 He had to remain human as long as he could。 And that was being an effort。 He couldn't just push her on the bed…that would frighten her…but he also didn't want to turn dragon and have her endure rougher handling。
Gently； he put his arms around her。 〃You have chosen me； F'lessan； and I will love you well！〃
He kissed her forehead and slowly tightened his arms about her。 If she weren't pletely thralled by Zaranth。。。 but had she ever been lovingly kissed？ He bent his head； his mouth tender on hers。 Let her still be human enough to feel this！ He had not expected the flare of passion that passed between them in a kiss he had intended to be delicate。 She trembled violently。 Instinctively he tightened his embrace。
〃You chose me； Tai。 You chose me；〃 he cried but her body went stiff in his arms。 Rocking her； he kissed her face； her cheeks； her mouth； her neck。 〃Choose me； Tai！〃 he begged as he felt the rigidity that was dragon…frenzy； not human。
And he was abruptly Golanth。
She had launched herself well； and then ducked sideways； streaming away from him with unusually strong sweeps of her wings。 She was big for a green and he liked that in her。 He did prefer greens to golds。 The golds always felt as if they were conferring great honor on a bronze by permitting them to mate。 But greens could be grateful。 They were certainly lustier than queens。 Perhaps because they mated more often。 She dodged to the right and he followed lazily。 Let her wear herself out a while。 He could wait。 He would wait。 This one was worth it。 He had been so careful； not being too possessive of her pany but he had let the others know tha