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ears or more）； scooped up a double handful of snow； and took a big mouthful。 He let it melt and trickle down his throat。 The feeling was heavenly。 Henry Devlin； psychiatrist and onetime author of a paper about the Hemingway Solution； a man who had once been a virgin boy and who was now a tall and geeky fellow whose glasses always slid down to the tip of his nose； whose hair was going gray； whose friends were either dead； fled； or changed； this man stood in the open gate of a place to which he would never e again； stood on skis； stood eating snow like a kid eating a Sno…Cone at the Shrine Circus； stood and watched the last really good place in his life bum。 The flames came through the cedar shingles。 Melting snow turned to steaming water and ran hissing down the rusting gutters。 Arms of fire popped in and out of the open door like enthusiastic hosts encouraging the newly arrived guests to hurry up； hurry up； dammit； get your asses in here before the whole place bums down。 The mat of red…gold fuzz growing on the granite slab had crisped； lost its color； turned gray。 'Good；' Henry muttered under his breath。 He was clenching his fists rhythmically on the grips of his ski…poles without being aware of it。 'Good； that's good。'
He stood that way for another fifteen minutes； and when he could bear it no more； he set his back to the flames and started back the way he had e。
7
There was no hustle left in him。 He had twenty miles to go （22。2 to be exact； he told himself）； and if he didn't pace himself he'd never make it。 He stayed in the packed track of the snowmobile； and stopped to rest more frequently than he had going the other way。
Ah； but I was younger then； he thought with only slight irony。
Twice he checked his watch； forgetting that it was now Eastern Standard No Time At All in the Jefferson Tract。 With the mat of clouds firmly in place overhead； all he knew for sure was that it was daytime。 Afternoon； of course； but whether mid or late he couldn't tell。 On another afternoon his appetite might have served as a gauge； but not today。 Not after the thing on Jonesy's bed； and the eggs； and the hairs with their protuberant black eyes。 Not after the foot sticking out of the bathtub。 He felt that he would never eat again 。 。 。 and if he did； he would never eat anything with even a slight tinge of red。 And mushrooms？ No thanks。
Skiing； at least on cross…country stubs like these； was sort of like riding a bike； he discovered： you never forgot how to do it。 He fell once going up the first hill； the skis slipping out from under him； but glided giddily down the other side with only a couple of wobbles and no spills。 He guessed that the skis hadn't been waxed since the peanut…farmer was President； but if he stayed in the crimped and flattened track of the snowmobile； he should be all right。 He marvelled at the stippling of animal tracks on the Deep Cut Road he had never seen a tenth as many。 A few critters had gone walking along it； but most of the tracks only crossed it； west to east。 The Deep Cut took a lazy northwest course； and west was clearly a point of the pass the local animal population wanted to avoid。
I'm on a journey； he told himself。 Maybe someday someone will write an epic poem about it： 'Henry's journey'。
'Yeah；' he said。 〃'Time slowed and reality bent； on and on the eggman went。〃' He laughed at that； and in his dry throat the laughter turned to hacking coughs。 He skied to the side of the snowmobile track； got another double handful of snow； and ate it down。
'Tasty and good for you！' he proclaimed。 'Snow！ Not just for breakfast anymore！'
He looked up at the sky； and that was a mistake。 For a moment he was overwhelmed with dizziness and thought he might go right over on his back。 Then the vertigo retreated。 The clouds overhead looked a little darker。 Snow ing？ Night ing？ Both ing at the same time？ His knees and ankles hurt from the steady shuffle…shuffle of the skis； and his arms hurt even worse from wielding the poles。 The pads of muscle on his chest were the worst。 He had already accepted as certainty that he wouldn't make it to Gosselin's before dark； now； standing here and eating more snow； it occurred to him that he might not make it at all。
He loosened the Red Sox tee…shirt he'd tied around his leg； and terror leaped in him when he saw a brilliant thread of scarlet against his bluejeans。 His heart beat so hard that white dots appeared in his field of vision； flocking and pumping。 He reached down to the red with shaking fingers。
What do you think you're going to do？ he jeered at himself。 Pick it off like it was a thread or a piece of lint？
Which was exactly what he did do； because it was a thread： a red one from the shirt's printed logo。 He dropped it and watched it float down to the snow。 Then he retied the shirt around the tear in his jeans。 For a man who had been considering all sorts of final options not four hours ago … the rope and the noose； the tub and the plastic bag； the bridge abutment and the ever…popular Hemingway Solution； known in some quarters as The Policeman's Farewell … he had been pretty goddamned scared there for a second or two。
Because I don't want to go like that； he told himself。 Not eaten alive by 。 。 。
'By toadstools from Planet X；' he said。
The eggman got moving again。
8
The world shrank； as it always does when we approach exhaustion with our work not done； or even close to done。 Henry's life was reduced to four simple； repetitive motions： the pump of his arms on the poles and the push of the skis in the snow。 His aches and pains faded； at least for the time being； as he entered some other zone。 He only remembered anything remotely like this happening once before； in high school； when he'd been the starting center on the Derry Tigers basketball team。 During a crucial pre…playoff game； three of their four best players had somehow fouled out before three minutes of the third quarter were gone。 Coach had left Henry in for the rest of the game … he didn't get a single blow except for time…outs and trips to the foul line。 He made it； but by the time the final buzzer honked and put an end to the affair （the Tigers had lost gaudily）； he had been floating in a kind of happy dream。 Halfway down the corridor to the boys' locker room； his legs had given out and down he had gone； with a silly smile still on his face； while his teammates； clad in their red travelling unis； laughed and cheered and clapped and whistled。
No one to clap or whistle here； only the steady crackle…and…stutter of gunfire off to the east。 Slowing a little bit now； maybe； but still heavy。
More ominous were the occasional gunshots from up ahead。 Maybe from Gosselin's？ It was impossible to tell。
He heard himself singing his least favorite Polling Stones song； 'Sympathy for the Devil' （Made damn sure that Pilate washed his hands and sealed His fate； thank you very much； you've been a wonderful audience； good night）； and made himself stop when lie realized the song had gotten all mixed up with memories of Jonesy in the hospital； Jonesy as he had looked last March； not just gaunt but somehow reduced； as if his essence had pulled itself in to form a protective shield around his surprised and outraged body。 Jonesy had looked to Henry like someone who was probably going to die； and although he hadn't died； Henry realized now that it was around that time that his own thoughts of suicide had bee really serious。 To the rogues gallery of images that haunted him in the middle of the night blue…white milk running down his father's chin； Barry Newman's giant economy…sized buttocks jiggling as he flew from the office； Richie Grenadeau holding out a dog…turd to the weeping and nearly naked Duddits Cavell； telling him to eat it； he had to eat it … there was now the image of Jonesy's too…thin face and addled eyes； Jonesy who had been swopped into the street without a single rhyme or reason； Jonesy who looked all too ready to put on his boogie shoes and get out of town。 They said he was in stable condition； but Henry had read critical in his old fi7iend's eyes。 Sympathy for the devil？ Please。 There was no god； no devil； no sympathy。 And once you realized that； you